For every high, there is a low. I guess this applies to spiritual level as well. I was on a spiritual high during CAW period, just surrendering everything to His hands. But after CAW, it started going downhill without me even realising it. Perhaps its due to the crazy amount of school work to catch up, rushing to study for tests and doing term papers and finally to this point-trying to get started to start studying. Nowadays, I can be so cynical and even question wad is the point of fasting, going through all the daily prayers, stations of the cross, CGs.. all these just seems so routine and is there really a purpose for it? Am I doing this just because it is Lent and not really bother about the true meaning behind it? Didnt really realise it till Steph pointed out to me that I am actually losing focus from God. It got me thinking real hard the past week, yup its true that I have lost focus.. I felt it even more when I go for Novena every Saturday and read out the phrase: 'Mary, Let me never lose my God'. I guess when you lose your God, everything just seems out of place but when you are align with Him, even when things go wrong, you will still feel at ease cos you know that He knows what is best for you.

And so at this point, I guess its time to pick up from where I left off since CAW... and just focus on Him and exams which is 3 weeks away. From then on, its time for me to give thanks for a great Year One I suppose. For all the new friends I have made along the way, never expected my uni journey to be like how it is today and it will definitely will not be possible without all the people He has provided me along the way and allowing me to grow in this fellowship...

Finally I have time to sit down and just spend some time typing here. Been spending hours in front of my laptop throughout the week. It seems that it has become my next best friend. My first time writing term papers this sem, sometimes i just wonder if it is worth putting in so much effort when some of the papers are just 10%. Must thank Steph, Fel and Marc for helping me out this week as well. And so, I am finally left with one more term paper for Understanding the Universe then its exams.

Yesterday CG's topic was on drawing strength from God. Through the sharings, it made me realise that I am really taking my parents for granted, esp my Dad. After spending hours in school, I just spend the rest of the night in my study room facing my laptop again, sometimes not even doing work, just some random chats on MSN. I literally face the laptop for more than half the day! I rarely even speak to my Dad. I will only approach him when i need $$$ or a ride to school... Always tell myself must change for the better but no effort done!

Death happens every other day. Someday somehow, it will happen to us and our loved ones. When it comes will I be prepared for it or rather will I be prepared for the lost? When things happens, we often use the phrases - its' God's Will and in all things he provides, draw strength from him etc.. cliche as it may sound, but I believe it does help. I guess the hardest thing to reconcile is the regret of not doing things like spending time, forgiving and loving.

Dun wait for things to happen, make things happen!

This week was one of a roller coaster week - high stress levels, lotsa questioning, lotsa doubts, lotsa temptations but at the end of it all, HE allows us to make the choice in whateva we do and sometimes we just have to do what is right. Thursday CG was good for me, very much on personal reflection and it was an apt time for many of us who are experiencing many issues. We were asked to write petitions and thanksgiving letters to Our Lady and Magic will submit it for us during Novena. Always wanted to write but no concrete action till last CG...finally it is done.

Fr Val gave a great sermon on Friday and i believe it reached out to many of us that are feeling troubled, stress, worried about various aspects of our lives. All in all, HE can draw straight lines with crooked lines... ie, He chooses sinful people to make perfect His plans. Fellowship on Friday was excellent, somehow everyone just enjoyed each other company and were reluctant to leave after dinner at Holland V. But indeed it was great company, we had people from different faculties. Bro Sam was also there promoting vocations! Yes vocations, even for the gals....

Watched 300 and Letter from Iwo Jima this weekend. I enjoyed Iwo much more than 300 actually and in fact Iwo was better than Flag of our Fathers. 2 more movies to catch b4 the exams - Teeenage Mutant Ninga Turtles, Bean's Holiday. And somehow became the honourary member of Steph and Fel club together with aaron and daryl song with magic as the hon. treasurer. Another member joined today, bestest friend -Charmaine Khoo, for her classic moment.

Happy 20th Birthday Mallery! Sam, Daryl and myself met up with Mallery to celebrate her birthday. Wanted to have dinner at the new Marche at Vivo but it was damn crowded, ended up with Sushi Tei instead with Ben and Jerry ice cream instead. We bought 2 pints of B and J and went to the open air 3rd floor of Vivo to eat.. The place is scenic at night man, damn suitable to bring your other half to just enjoy the cool nite breeze under the stars. :) In the midst of the mid term tests and assignment, it's actually a good break and to just relax and enjoy the good company, ice cream, scenary and just chat randomly. Brought back memories of good old JC days when you just do random and lame things. Ended up with the idea of wanting to start a blog for us to post photos and craps. The gals wanted to give the blog name... from Ah Huats and Old Maids at first to Ah Huats and Ah Huas... we finally decided on This This That That. As usual, ended up taking lotsa photos, so I shall just upload it here for you guys to download:

This Gals

That Guys

This This That That